India

India.
One day I prayed and asked God if the desire for India is only form me or also form you. Then strait away I was given contact from various people form India and so many meaningfull confesations! Now it all ended, and I am questioning again.
India is still in my heart, but all the doors are closed. No options for me to be there, and the ones that are require such a big ammount of money that I do not have. I can not make long term plans in my country, what if You lead me there next year already? What if You do not? So I am hanging in here without gravity..
Lord, hear the prayer of my heart!

Feeling of emptiness

Feel empty today.
Day with no reason and no purpose, only one - to rest.
Cheched the best options in travel to Polland, watched endless movies. There are days like this - simply to rest. I enjoy it.
Lord, please fill me up again tomorrow and give me strength.